Confirmed: Dumped by Relocation

He moved.  To the other side of the world.  Without telling me.  He finally sent me a message today.

I'm sorry Beth", he said, "it happened so quickly."  He said he won't be coming back for the forseeable future.

So in lamens terms, that says "Thanks for the hassle-free, easily obtainable fuck but you're really not that important to me."

My heart was absolutely pounding when I saw I had a message from him, I knew what it'd say of course.  Its funny how you go into that fight or flight mode over something so silly.  8:40am is too early for adrenaline to be pumping like that.  8:40am is too early for most things on a weekend.  (Except for flicking through the channels on sky to see what time Viva Pinata is on, its strangely entertaining - possibly all the pretty colours.)

So, thats it.  I'm a single girl now.  Fuck it, I've been a single girl held prisoner by a girl in denial for about the last 6 months.  Girl in Denial wanted the relationship, loved the guy who didn't love her.

Single Girl has wanted to beat Girl in Denial about the head to the point of unconsciousness for a while now.  Single Girl has known that this was due for a while.  What made it difficult is that Single Girl likes getting laid and so while Girl in Denial was staying because she wanted the relationship, Single Girl was staying because she wanted the sex.

I'm in a much better state about all this than I ever dreamed I'd be.  I think part of it is that I'm free now, I'm not clinging onto the hope that someone cares because I know he doesn't.  I'm immediately moving on from this and learning the lesson (who cares if I had to re-take the class!).

I want to have fun, I want to flirt outrageously with men I have no intention of dating.  I can think of at least 2 people I'd really like to fuck that I probably can't because of circumstances but I can see that flirting with them will be a lot of fun.  I'm a pretty girl, I have a shit load of good qualities (although this morning modesty isn't one of them!) and I'm going to find someone that actually appreciates how lucky he'd be to have that.  I understand that it won't be an easy task to find that guy, but I plan on having a good time while I try.

So I guess this re-affirms the beginning of new Beth.  If it wasn't so early on a saturday morning, I'd drink to that.

Comments

[oe]

Ouch. Another coward.

Still, I like the sound of Single Girl.

[Peach]

right, so this is where you say to yourself, it wasn't him, it wasn't me, it just wasn't right. Too much whatdidIdowrong stuff leads to a life of self-hating and alcohol as the only friend you can rely on (erm, how do I know this) and too much of whatafuckingbastardallmenarethesame leads to the lonely middle aged misery of the women you mentioned at the massage in an earlier post, often with too many cats and attempts to prove their attractiveness by holding annesummers parties and wearing too much low cut fuchia. shit, any fuchia...

You're better than all of that Single Beth, and you're gorgeous... I await a post starting "How I love being me, because..."

[brandy]

Welcome to my world. Tonight I plan on wearing ridiculously nice shoes and showing off my tan to many suitors, none of which I plan on getting serious about. Here's hoping that modesty continues to take a backseat (because it's one of my least favourite qualities), and that Single Beth finds happiness where ever she looks. (I'm not commenting about the guy because really, I don't think he deserves a lot of thought)

[Beth]

OE - This is actually the same coward as last time, ditched me by email first, now by just moving. Its pretty special.

But yeah, Single Girl sounds like fun. She ought to be out on a saturday night really, but she's tired after her 5am start yesterday so she's taking it easy.

Peach - Thank you for the compliments and thats pretty much what I'm saying. Its nobodies fault, it just didn't work. I'm not even angry, and speaking as an angry person thats a real surprise. If I'm feeling arrogant at any point, I'll definitely use the "I love being me" topic though - that could be fun.

Brandy - I'm very jealous of your tan, being eternally pale myself. I'm in on a saturday night, but I'm going to try and ensure this isn't a habit I keep. Have a great night, I'll be looking for a post on your non-serious suitors!

[ruby]

I'm sorry to hear this but I am looking forward to Fabulous Adventures of Single Girl!

[brookem]

You are a beautiful girl with wonderful qualities! Go get em girl!