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Two blokes in a van now think I'm mental

Text message conversation:

Me: "Please tell me I just waved at you driving a white van.  I'm sure it was you.  If not, two blokes in a van now think I'm mental.

Reply:  "Two blokes in a van now think you're mental."

Weighing it Up

I realised yesterday, my attitude to food is incredibly unhealthy.

I was wandering around waitrose (after nipping into John Lewis and spending twenty quid on this little lovely) and trying to pick something for dinner.  My Dad has been having a particularly difficult time with work of late and so I thought I'd make something he liked.  An eternity later, I can't really decide and opt for spaghetti bolognese.  On my walk home I realised that the chances are, a nice meal isn't going to make him feel much better about things.  Therein lies yet another difference between men and women.  For men, or the majority at least, food = fuel.  For women, again I'm generalising a bit, food = comfort.

Over the last few months, namely since the ex moved away, my diet has been far from exemplary.  It wasn't good before, but it got considerably worse.  I've put on weight.  Not much, but enough to push me to the high end of my dress size and I'm not about to start buying clothes that are one size bigger.  The weight seems to have gone to my thighs and stomach, which is the norm for me.  It never goes to my chest, which is really the only part of my body I'd like to gain a little mass.  I've also been feeling increasingly lethargic.  I am working harder at the moment, but if I was treating my body better it wouldn't be so difficult.

We all know what that means.  Diet.  Exercise.  *shudder*

My mindset is sufficiently unhealthy that I'd actually rather not eat at all than have to eat boring, tasteless things I don't like.  Of course I know that if you starve yourself you won't lose any weight and ideally you need to eat every 3 hours.  Its just so damned difficult.  The second I say to myself "you shouldn't eat that really.." I want it.  I could go weeks without eating chocolate when I'm allowed it, but if in my head I'm telling myself I'm not, I may as well have a case of Dairy Milk melted down and given to me intravenously (I'd rather have fruit and nut, but it'd cause some problems with circulation).  But because I'm an all or nothing sort, if I'm allowing myself some chocolate I want the whole bar.  I'm not sure how I'm going to get around that bit.

Next week I'm starting.  I'm going to make a concerted effort to eat better and I'm going to exercise at least 3 times per week, not including the 50 minutes spent walking to/from work and the 30 minutes spent walking to the shop on my lunchbreak each day.  I'm finally going to use some of the hundreds of pounds of fitness equipment I already have and try to resist the urge to buy any more.

Any tips/support/recommendations for a cheap plastic surgeon so I can have lipo and not do this are most welcome!

To Do List - Updated

* Regularly update blog
Getting better - could try harder.

* Answer 5 things quiz that Ing asked me to do

WHAT WERE YOU DOING TEN YEARS AGO?

I was at school, I was fat and surly.  I don't seem to recall being all that happy!

SONGS TO WHICH YOU KNOW ALL THE LYRICS:

There are WAY too many to list here.  I still remember lyrics from songs I used to listen to when I was about 5!
 
FIVE THINGS YOU WOULD DO IF YOU WERE A MILLIONAIRE:

• Make sure my family and friends were housed, debt free etc
• Buy myself a house and a car!
• Defintely travel - first class all the way baby!
• Go back to school and learn something I'm really interested in.
• Get a personal trainer, because it really is the only way I'm going to get in shape.

FIVE BAD HABITS:

• I'm abrupt.  Some people like that, some people don't.
• Swearing.  I do it way too much for a girl!
• Mocking.  Some people just ask for it and I need to quit!
• Sleeping with the TV on.
• Buying new beauty products when I still have old stuff to use up.

FIVE THINGS YOU LIKE DOING:

• Sleeping
• Shopping
• Taking baths!
• Having dinner with my friends
• Watching DVD's.
  

FIVE THREE THINGS YOU’LL NEVER WEAR AGAIN:

• Leggings
• DM's
• Shell suits

FIVE FAVOURITE TOYS:

• My nintendo DS Lite.
• My PC - gateway to the interweb
• My mobile phone, even though I'm really bored of it, due an upgrade on Wednesday but don't know what I want.
• My dvd player - I'd be lost without dvds.
• My makeup collection - not really a toy, but I love it.

* Put up my Rockin Girl Blogger Award
Yay me - I got a Rockin Girl Blogger Award!  See:

This means I have to nominate 5 other RGB's.  So, here goes:

Beth -  She writes a fantastic blog - a good girly read, and what better sort of blogger to have a Rockin Girl Blogger award!

Leah Vanessa - LV's is one of the first blogs I ever read!  She doesn't update nearly as much as I wish she could, but she really writes from the heart and I love that!

Peach - SUCH a fantastic blogger.  Very cool.  Possibly too cool for a Rockin' Girl Blogger award - but I'm nominating her anyway!

Jen - She writes a beauty blog.  Probably one of the best on the net, for my money.  You get some great heads' ups' (okay, its not a word, but you know what I mean!) on new products, there are tutorials if you're stuck on how to achieve a certain look AND to top it all off she's an all around fantastic person!

Dr Deb - Deb is another one of my early blogging discoveries and what she writes is amazing.  She could be described as a mental health blogger, but that doesn't quite do her justice.  Definitely one to check out!

You 5 now get to have the little award in your sidebar (mine isn't there because I'm too lazy to put it there, but I'll get to it!) and nominate 5 other Rockin Girl Bloggers!

* Reply to Chris' email
Done!

* Email Dan
Done too!

* Reply to wall posts on facebook
This one is going to be ongoing, but I'm pretty much up to date!

* Start eating properly
Not. Even. Close.

* Organise bathroom
Nope.  Well, sort of.  I've tidied.  I'm going to use up the stuff I have before I buy new stuff and then buy night cream.

* Buy Slipknot's 3rd Album, Velvet Revolvers new one and possibly Linkin Park's new one too.    
Wasn't that important in comparison to the other stuff, so it can wait a bit!

* Go to the dentist.
I'm probably going to take out some of the HSA healthcare insurance soon, so I will go when I've done that and it wont be so costly.

* Give blood
They always make the sessions when I'm at work - so thats a not yet.

* Find better things to blog about.  To do lists are boring.
I have stuff.  At least one substantial story, but for reasons I'll explain when I actually post about it, I can't write it yet.  I will though, definitely.  Its an insight into my working life.

To Do List

• Regularly update blog
• Answer 5 things quiz that Ing asked me to do
• Put up my Rockin Girl Blogger Award (from the lovely Clare) and nominate 3 (or was it 5?) other Rockin Girl Bloggers.
• Reply to Chris' email so he doesn't think I've gone awol
• Email Dan - because I've been awful and not emailed since I called him a month ago
• Reply to wall posts on facebook.  Think of good things to say to old school friends who are asking what I've been up to in the last 10 or so years.
• Start eating properly.  A can of coke is not suitable for breakfast and no matter how ingenius my workings are, chocolate is not a vegetable and cannot be counted towards my 5 a day.  Same applies to the lime wedge in a bottle of Corona.
• Organise bathroom - buy new cleanser (ran out of Liz Earle, am using stuff thats not as good in the mean time), buy night cream. 
• Buy Slipknot's 3rd Album, Velvet Revolvers new one and possibly Linkin Park's new one too.
• Go to the dentist.  I'm scared.  Of the cost rather than the pain, incidentally.
• Give blood - I've been bad and not gone for the best part of a year now.
• Find better things to blog about.  To do lists are boring.